At [Horeb, the mount of God,][Elijah] came to a cave and spent the night there. Then the word of the Lord came to him, saying, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” He answered, “I have been very zealous for the LORD, the God of hosts, for the Israelites have forsaken your covenant, thrown down your altars, and killed your prophets with the sword. I alone am left, and they are seeking my life, to take it away.” (1 Kings 19:9-10)
It can be a lonely job to serve as God's messenger--especially when you are questioning if you even have God at your side.
That's where Elijah is at the start of this scene from 1 Kings, which many of us heard in worship this past Sunday. Elijah is on the run, fleeing for his life, as a result of challenging the king and queen for leading the people into worshipping idols like the Canaanite god Baal. He feels utterly alone, and with good reason. After a showdown between Elijah and the prophets of Baal, the queen issued a vendetta against Elijah and essentially put a hit on him as if she were a mafia boss. Elijah has seen the power of the palace used to kill those who were faithful to Israel's God, YHWH, and he is now afraid that he will be next. Elijah is afraid, to be sure, but also feels like he is the only one left, as though there is no one else in his corner, since he believes that all the other faithful prophets of YHWH have been killed or secretly driven into hiding.
And all of that raises the uncomfortable question of where God is in the midst of all this. After all, if God, YHWH, has allowed all these other faithful and true prophets to be killed, is Elijah safe? Is God on Elijah's side, or has YHWH abandoned Elijah and left him to fend for himself? From the prophet's standpoint, he certainly feels like he is on his own, without the support of friends and allies, and uncertain about where God is to be found.
So he goes to the one place the old stories talked about meeting God--he goes to Mount Horeb. Horeb, in case you had forgotten this little detail, was another name for Mount Sinai, the famous summit where Moses had met God in the burning bush (back in Exodus 3) and then later where the Israelites gathered once they had been set free and received the covenant and the commandments carved in stone. In other words, it was THE quintessential meeting place for God. If God was anywhere to be found, Elijah seems to have told himself, it should be on this mountain. This was where that other great solitary hero of Israel's legendary past, Moses, had met God and been encouraged to take on a different king, the Pharaoh of Egypt. This was the place known colloquially as "the mount of God." This was the place where a lonely and despondent prophet would look to find some divinely-given courage and reinforcements.
When God asks Elijah why he has come, it's not that God needs to know the answer. It's that God knows Elijah needs to say it. He has come a long way--probably between three and four hundred miles--convinced that he needed to get to this spot on the map in order to have his face-to-face meeting with God. Along that journey, as he got weary, God had sent angels to accompany him (and to cook pancakes for him) and helped him regain his strength to finish the trek. So God has been with Elijah all along, even when Elijah could not feel it or see it--and even when he was clearly being given divine assistance (like angelic short-order cooks) but could not recognize it. Even when the only thing that seems real to Elijah is the persistent pain of loneliness, God has been with him all along. And yet God knows that Elijah needs to vent the hurt, to name the wound, and to pour out his aching heart--even when that takes the form of accusing God of abandoning him. The living and real God can take such accusations, and does in fact bear them, because that is what Elijah needs.
In fact, I think that's even really what this whole journey has been about: Elijah goes all the way out to "The Mountain Where People Meet God," not because God somehow requires it, or because God is only holding office hours at Mount Horeb, but because Elijah has convinced himself that's where he needs to go in order to have his one-on-one meeting with God. God is willing to accommodate Elijah's self-imposed need to go on this pilgrimage, because the important thing for God is to finally get through to him, since he has convinced himself he is otherwise alone and that he can only meet God on the mountain. In other words, God meets Elijah on the mountain, not because that's the only place you can find God, but because at least at this point in the prophet's life, he has told himself that's where he'll be able to experience God's presence.
Of course, we do our own versions of this, too. Sometimes we tell ourselves that we'll ONLY meet God if we go on a trip to some special place, whether a famous cathedral, or your old childhood hometown church, or the Holy Land, or your local congregation's Sunday service. Or sometimes we say we'll only really have an encounter with God if we go on an "official" pilgrimage, like the famous Camino de Santiago in Spain, or to see the sights of a Bible-themed tour, or whatever else we might decide. Other times, we insist that we've really only "met" God if we had a spiritual "high" or felt something supernatural happen. Or maybe it's that one spot in the woods, or that place along the shore, where you like to watch sunrises or go for walks. We all have places we tell ourselves (or maybe just hint to ourselves?) are somehow closer to God, or where we have felt a connection to God before... so we go back to them like salmon swimming upstream to get to the old spawning grounds where they were born.
And while we can certainly encounter God in any of those "special" places (or, as the old Celtic spirituality would put it, "thin places,"), the truth is that God is also already there accompanying us along the way to the Official Place to Meet God, during the whole journey. God is not only waiting to be discovered at a Special Destination, but goes with us all along the way, even empowering us to keep going on the way, because God knows that sometimes this is what we need... or what we have told ourselves we need. And in hindsight, we end up seeing that God was with us, sending pancake angels all along, waking us up to eat and drink, encouraging us when we need it, all so that we could finally reach the point where we would be ready to see God's presence (which has been there anyway all the time).
I don't know whether you are feeling like Elijah these days, but at some point we all do. We will feel alone and despondent, whether because of death or divorce, a move across country, a change of careers, disappointment with church, or some other life-event that shakes us to our core. In those times, we may well feel like even God's presence is in question. And we may find ourselves going to some place, some particular point on the map, to try and meet the God we are doubting and seeking at the same time. When that happens, remember what Elijah discovered: the God we are looking for and hoping to meet at Point B is with us all along the way from when we first headed out from Point A. And that God remains with us, all the while willing to take whatever accusations we can lob, even when we can't feel it or sense it.
Just ask Elijah.
Lord God, help us to know your presence here, and give to us along the way what you see that we need.






